The cynical optimist

So this is all brand new for me, and if anyone ever reads this welcome to the ride…
I have no direction yet, no clue how to properly blog, but have come to the outrageous decision to learn on the fly and try this out. Be patient with me.

I am 24 years old, and there have been only two constant things in my life my faith and writing. Now at times I have felt alone in both these things, but I continue to do them, I teach faith courses on sunday afternoons and write in my freetime, I am currently working on my first novel called Project Phoenix, and much like this blogging experience I started having no freaking clue what the hell was going on, but have worked through and pushed through with the help of amazing people.

I guess in a way what I’m trying to say is that we have to be able to dive into things without knowing what the hell is going on, we have to learn, to persevere. We have to be willing to have faith and know that regardless if trying that new thing was an epic failure, at least we tried…

For me I have never been one to try, I’ve been one to sit on the fringes and let both opportunity and conflict pass me by, because if i did not try, I could not fail, If i did not put myself out there i could not have people dislike me. However, something has changed very recently with me, I now desire a voice, I now desire opportunity and even a little conflict. I am ready to join the rest of humanity in this rollercoaster of life, I am ready to put myself out there, I am ready to scream and stand and love and be hurt…For the first time in my life I am really announcing my presence…so in the end…boiling this whole thing down to a single point. I am here…and i am ready to live.