The cynical optimist

Is it weird that I always come to here when I don’t know what else to do? When my brain is running 100 miles an hour and I can’t think straight? When I need to understand my thoughts and it all seems like a tangled web of madness and chaos….because that’s where I’m at right now…my brain is a runaway train and I’m trying to just through words at it, sentences, comma’s, similes…whatever the hell I can to slow it down because I don’t know what’s on the tracks at the end.

It has been a week…not just for me but for most of the country, even longer for the world around me. I just worked a 6 day work week, in the midst of panic shopping at a pharmacy, I’ve had a head cold, and I’m just tired….

But while I could spend this whole post talking about the Coronavirus, or the anxiety and fear, or the upcoming election, I could focus on the canceled events, or the events in jeopardy. I don’t want to do that. While that’s important to talk about and understand and dissect, I feel like adding my voice to that won’t help anybody. I want to focus on some good news.

I recently joined a new writing community called The Prompt Magazine and had my first piece published there, I’m looking forward to getting more involved there over the next few weeks once I find my bearings, but in the mean time go check them out they have some really amazing writers and artists there.

This was a huge step for me, last year I said I wanted to allow myself to engage in community and stop lurking, stop silencing myself, stop slamming on the breaks before the car has even started and this is yet another step forward in that regard.

I’ve also been setting aside more time to read again for the first time in a few years. I’ve spent all my spare time either endlessly scrolling through social media, or writing, or a mix of both more than reading lately and I had to make a conscious effort to change that, so far I’ve read 4 books this year and about to start book 5 maybe as soon as I finish writing this post…

Three of the four books i’ve read this year were the conclusions of series i’ve been reading for awhile, and normally that’s fine, I get a little sad that I won’t have anything new in content from those characters anymore, but I can always re-read those books, but as i posted about in my Leap of Faith post, 2020 has been filled with the potential of endings, and the beginning of a lot of unknown things….that it was all I was thinking about and made getting through those books a little harder. It was just another thing I was used too, a small comfort ending and I’ve had just about enough of that this year and we are only 3 months in…

I don’t really know how to end this post and I don’t really want to ramble on for an eternity so i’m just gonna close it out with a few parting words.. The world is in a weird, challenging place right now and we are all doing our best to survive in it. So, be kind to each other, stay safe, celebrate the small victories, let people that matter to you know…we’ll get through this together, where there is darkness shine a light, where there is despair seek out the hope…Stay safe out there everybody, I’ll be seeing you on the other side…