The cynical optimist

I don’t know how long these should be but yes, I need time. I turn 32 at the end of this year. I recently ended a 14 year relationship, I’m at a job that I don’t love, everything seems to be up in the air and unresolved, yet the days click by, the months pass and the years start again. I need time to slow down, to pause, to breathe while I figure all of this out. Let the clock quiet, let the seconds not pass. Let the world catch its breath and give me a moment to figure out what an hour from now looks like, and then move on from there.